Failing?

Oh it has been a hard few weeks. We have been busy, busy, the kids have been more than their usual handful and I feel like I have been running all day every day. Add to that the severe lack of sleep and ever changing, although almost always gray days here, and my mood is off. When anyone gets off schedule, it is so easy to fall back on what is easy, and I fear I have been doing that.

I just haven't been as diligant as usual in cooking, shopping and eating locally and healhy, and I am feeling the pain. I am finding that the winter is hard to deal with if you don't have the supplies you need. As we never canned last summer or stocked up well, I am having to make do with what I can find, and it has been difficult. I am always thinking there has to be more I can do, something I am missing, but I am still a novice and finding my way.

I am anticipating spring, and with the garden plans looking secure and the seed order ready to go, I am hopeful that we will eat better soon. I know I am doing more than I did this time last year, but also know that I am not where I want to be just yet. Still on the short list: order local beef, find locally milled flour, reorganize the pantry to fit the bulk items, order bulk grain to have on hand and incorporate new foods into our diets. Oh I cannot wait until the spring brings us a bounty of fruits and veggies, and am anxious to try my hand at canning, so we are not in this same dreary spot next winter.