Geez, I am over so many things. I realized recently that I have become soft in my old age, that I have allowed things that I would never have allowed at 16, 18, 22....WTH is up with that? I worry all the time, I don't take any risks...any, and I allow others to impact my choices and to in turn have a negative impact on my kids.
Well, I am done with it. I decided to no longer let other people impact my life..other than Ryan and the kids that is. No more being walked on, taken advantage of, worried or scared. I am not sure how I am going to do this, but I know one thing, I was powerful in my teens and twenties. I affected the people around me, I was valuable to them and they cared about me, my life and my ideas. I made choices that were often unpopular, but well executed. I am worth more than I am getting now, and I am through feeling bad or being put down. I need to do for myself for a change, and I am not going to be afraid or worried or care if it upsets other people.
So...I am pretty sure that I am going to be pissing a lot of people off in the next few months, and I really don't give a damn anymore. This is MY life, MY family, and MY choices, and some of you just don't make the cut.