Monday, January 25, 2010

Hey you to pull me out of this hole?

OK, I have made a rapid descent into a mini depression. Don't worry folks, they only last a day or two with me, because, lets face it, I simply don't have time to be depressed.

Here is what is troubling me. I work. I work hard, really hard, every day and I don't feel like I am getting anywhere. On top of that, I am watching life run past and don't get to enjoy it. I don't get days off, and I am not even talking about from mom and wife duties, and I don't feel like I get any down time. This has to change, I can't live my life doing for everyone, working and not enjoying life.

So here is what I am thinking. I am going to schedule...yes schedule...two days a month for fun. One will be a family day, one will be a date day with my husband. In addition, I am opening another checking account at a different bank with a separate bank card and I am paying that account each week. I plan to give that card to my husband so I cannot use the money for practical things, and I will use it only for our fun stuff. I feel like i have to force this stuff, but I am always the first to give to everyone else and do for everyone else, I need to make time to make myself happy too. I need to experience this life I have worked so hard to build, and while I am really happy that the husband and kids get to live it up...I think I deserve a little fun too.

Let's hope I stick to it!


Jen said...

DO IT! This is an excellent idea and you deserve it.

Also, your kids deserve it. When they are parents, they'll model what they saw from you. When you show them that you are important, and your happiness is important, you are investing in their future mental health.

Tribe Mama said...

Thanks Jen you are so right! Spoke to the hubby and we are making a plan to take some things off my list and to add some fun back in for me.