OK, I have made a rapid descent into a mini depression. Don't worry folks, they only last a day or two with me, because, lets face it, I simply don't have time to be depressed.
Here is what is troubling me. I work. I work hard, really hard, every day and I don't feel like I am getting anywhere. On top of that, I am watching life run past and don't get to enjoy it. I don't get days off, and I am not even talking about from mom and wife duties, and I don't feel like I get any down time. This has to change, I can't live my life doing for everyone, working and not enjoying life.
So here is what I am thinking. I am going to schedule...yes schedule...two days a month for fun. One will be a family day, one will be a date day with my husband. In addition, I am opening another checking account at a different bank with a separate bank card and I am paying that account each week. I plan to give that card to my husband so I cannot use the money for practical things, and I will use it only for our fun stuff. I feel like i have to force this stuff, but I am always the first to give to everyone else and do for everyone else, I need to make time to make myself happy too. I need to experience this life I have worked so hard to build, and while I am really happy that the husband and kids get to live it up...I think I deserve a little fun too.
Let's hope I stick to it!