Mid-morning update...it ain't pretty

Well.......not even 11 am and I have cried.  Seems Haven felt she needed to put a notebook on the shelf over the island where I keep my precious coffee roaster.  I went to quickly move said roaster since the stove was on and I was worried about it getting too much heat, ran into the notebook and the roaster fell to the floor.  One piece of the top is broken off, and while it fits together and when I tried it out it works....it smokes more than it should.  This roaster is my one prized possession.  I waited about a year to buy it, they are expensive and I love being able to roast my own beans.  The fact that it is now broken is devastating and while I can "just buy another" I NEVER spend that kind of money on myself and don't want to have to do it to replace something I had that worked :(

Anyway...right now soup is bubbling on the stove.  I boiled and soaked about a cup and a half of navy beans for a few hours.  Poured the beans and liquid out and saved, then removed the casing from two sweet Italian sausage and chopped into bite sized hunks, browned with some onion and carrots.  Then I added the beans and liquid back, along with some chicken stock and it is cooking on the stove.  I will add in some diced fresh tomato, basil, orzo and fresh spinach before the day is done, along with salt and pepper, red pepper flakes and oregano.  This soup is hearty and tasty and will hopefully make the hubby feel better.

Currently making no promises on the meatballs, I am feeling the effects of the baby's early waking, so they may need to wait until tomorrow. I can always grill some chicken tenders up and do the "make your own salad" night.

Sugar cookie dough is in the fridge and the cookie cutters are ready to go.  It took me years to find a sugar cookie recipe I liked and that froze well.  I now use the first one listed here http://simplyrecipes.com/recipes/sugar_cookies/  I cut the butter in by hand and add an extra tablespoon of cream (actually we use half and half) and the cookies always come out soft and crisp.  We freeze them before decorating and they freeze like a dream, just don't be afraid, the dough is very crumbly before you chill it, but it will come together.  Off to make lunches so the crabby baby can take a nap and the equally crabby mama can join her.

***EDITED TO ADD-Found the replacement part for the roaster!  Only 13 bucks shipped and YES I am making the kid pay for it (I provided her a discount)!  She has mucho dinero and it will be a good lesson not to leave stuff everywhere!  Thirteen bucks beats having to pay $150 for a whole new roaster. ***

Making an agenda

Well.....hubby has to work tonight which changed our plans a bit.  Add to that the fact he is not feeling well, and I really feel bad for him!  Thankfully he will get home soon and head to bed and I have a few things up my sleeve to hopefully help him feel better!

On our agenda today:
1. Make soup for the hubby...I am making an Italian sausage and bean soup, it is a little spicy and filled with good veggies to soothe his throat.
2. Make meatballs for dinner for the rest of us.
3. Have the kids start switching out summer clothes to make room for winter, even though it will be in the high 70's this week.
4.  Ironically...start making Christmas cookies.  I am hoping to get a few dozen in the freezer by the end of the weekend. I usually make between 10 and 12 kinds, so I need to get a jump start.  This weekend I will make the chocolate chip and the sugar cut outs (we decorate closer to Christmas).
5. Grade a bunch of papers....need to stay on top of these, there are a bunch left!
6. Laundry.  We made a big dent yesterday, my goal today is to wash at least three loads.
7. Try to relax.  Tomorrow we will clean the house, it is becoming a weekly ritual that the kids and I (and Ryan if home) clean the house together each weekend.  I clean all week, but the extra help on weekends helps get bigger projects done and keeps things manageable.

The Bare Minimum

Sometimes all you can do is what you have to do.  Here is the last few days in a nutshell:

• Work crazy crazy
• Home busy busy
• Laundry is taking us over
• Teagan not napping and waking at ridiculous times (5:15 am today!)
• Husband working only three shifts but it feels like 300
• Farm and Wegmans today with a baby up since 5:15 was interesting..she was good, I was tired and realized that lugging the milk and groceries are no longer a good idea....lots of contractions.
• Finn is low low low and it hurts hurts hurts...seriously, he is a big boy and walking is painful.
• The kids have been super about helping out
• I have pregnancy insomnia, get it every time, can't fall asleep until 1 or 2 am...coupled with Teagans early wakings=TIRED
• When exhausted, homemade stromboli is an easy dinner and the troops are happy
• When making Halloween cupcakes, always make extra and freeze them...they go too fast!
• Hubby is off tomorrow-YEAH
• First draft of Chapter 1 of dissertation is completed and sent off for judging, um, feedback
• I have a call at 7:30 tonight and then I plan to pass out.

The end.

Holy Hormones Batman

I am over 32 weeks pregnant now and it blows my mind that Teagan was born a mere 5 weeks from where I am now.  I am not ready for Finn, well not mentally anyway.  I have all the clothes ready, they just need a wash.  I have the gear, including the warm car seat cover that we never needed with the other kids. I have just four or five Christmas gifts left to purchase. I know he is coming soon, really soon, but I am still so immersed in work, school, kids, etc. that I just cannot get my head around how quickly it is coming, and it is throwing me for a loop.

The last two days have been hormonal meltdown days.  Work is crazy, PT job is keeping me busy since I am trying to stay on top of everything "just in case" I am finalizing Chapter 1 of my dissertation which is proving impossible since I am so tired, I am rushing to write the last three weeks of lectures for the course I am developing and I am trying to maintain the household so it is ready for when Finn comes.  Ryan's car was in the shop today getting tires and an alignment, and when we picked it up they told us the brake lights don't work, so tomorrow the car will go to the dealership to get the sensor fixed.  Add to that the playroom is still being worked on, my bathroom is a wreck, the baby gear needs to be washed, I need to move the car seats around, the bassinet needs to be put in my room, and so on and so forth...I am a wreck!


I melted down to the husband today and I think we have a plan.  The playroom trim needs to get done ASAP so we can put the room back together.  He is setting up our bathroom so I can use everything but the shower, which will help after the c-section.  A few other key tasks will get done as well, and as long as I get Chapter 1 sent over to my chair on Thursday and the lectures written by Sunday, I will have two big concerns off my list.  In five to six weeks, we will have a whole new set of challenges, of adventures, or happiness and stress, and I am trying to calm myself enough to get through these last weeks, get my ducks in a row, and be able to enjoy my new son when he comes.

It is all about the highs...trust me

Life with a houseful of kids, crazy jobs, school, chores, etc. can make for a lot of highs and lows throughout a day, hell throughout an hour!  Last week was tough, but it is over.  Haven is on the mend, the hubs is working again tonight (OT) but will be home tomorrow, and we are all getting what needs to get done, done and have plans to celebrate with a night out tomorrow!

Grayson has a birthday party to attend this afternoon, and usually I go out during the week to get the present so I don't have to drag everyone with me on the weekend.  Sadly that just didn't happen, Haven was just feeling too sick for me to take her around town.  So first thing this morning I loaded everyone up, along with my cup of coffee that the husband brought home for me, and we headed out to Target.  Well the kids were like a bunch of cats high on catnip...seriously a crazy bunch of buggers, so much so that we almost had to get right back in the car when we got there!  In the parking lot the kids were briefed on the expectations at Target, and away we went!  Thankfully it was not crowded, so my roaming and distracted children were not too much of a menace, and we managed to secure the much needed birthday gift, four new sets of PJs for Teagan, wipes and a ridiculous amount of Halloween candy...I think I was weakened by the crazy children.  So, mission accomplished, although it was not the smoothest of adventures. However we did discuss the important topic of Halloween dinner on our way home and the children decided on the following menu: Witches Toes (homemade chicken nuggets), Monster Brains (Rotini with pesto and mozzarella cheese thrown in for ick and slime factor), beetles and slugs salad (black grapes and bananas sliced longways with a yogurt dip) and of course, Ghost Punch (blue lemonade).  Yummy!

Came home and decided to attack the mail pile.  Since our bills are all paid online, usually mail is the least of my concerns and ends up in recycling or trash pretty quickly.  Today as I was sorting, I noticed a weird envelope and opened it...and inside was a certificate from my FT gig.  I have been there 5 years and as a reward for the insanity that can be caused by the job (just kidding, it is a pretty good job) they sent me this 50 dollar card with a code for a website.  Curious, I logged on and was super freakin excited....I could trade that 50 bucks in for gift cards of varying amounts at a million different stores!  Seriously, they had everything from LobsterGram to Amazon to Outback to CVS!  Needless to say, I got picking and secured cards to Target, CVS, Amazon and Toys R Us...I see the last few Christmas purchases within my evil grasp.

Now I must gather the ingredients for lunch, while in a state of gift card euphoria, I promised the kids they could have make your own pizza bagels for lunch...and promised a million toppings, I better get chopping!

The forest for the trees

It has been a long week, a long, exhausting week.  Haven has been home the entire week, and thankfully she slept fairly well last night which meant I slept fairly well last night, getting up at 5 am today instead of 3 am.  She is also feeling better, much less whiny and more like herself, and she is eating a bit more which is a huge relief since she is tiny to begin with, a week of not eating is not a good idea.

In addition to the illness and lack of sleep, we have also been dealing with an issue at school.  Basically we want Haven moved to a different class, the current teacher is simply not a good match, she is a yeller and Haven feels she is embarrassing her, and has had a lot of anxiety about school and is having a hard time getting what she needs.  I am NOT judging the teacher, I really don't know what happens in the classroom, but my kid is perceiving it in a poor way, and it is affecting her learning.  We have been trying to talk to the school about it and we were not getting very far, but finally today I talked to the Assistant Principal who knows Haven and our family well and who we have worked with in the past when Haven was getting her Epilepsy diagnosis done and dealt with.  She agreed that Haven is very bright and needs to be challenged, and that she needs to be in a positive learning environment.  We will meet with the AP, the Principal and the teacher Tuesday and I am not backing down on moving her, she needs it and it has to happen for her to be able to achieve at her highest potential.  We know that next year they begin placing the students, and in most subjects she is advanced, so we need to make sure she is placed where she will best fit academically.  These are the hard parenting moments, when you want to see the right thing happen quickly for your child, but you need to wait, and meet, and talk, and wait, and talk, etc.  I am hopeful that Tuesday we will all come to the conclusion that she cannot stay in the current class, and if the school does not agree, I will have no choice but to pull her out so that she continues to move forward in her studies.

So this is where we are at, trying to see the forest for the trees. We are all together, healthy, happy, content and very, very fortunate. 

Time to buck up

Last night was another adventure in no sleep.  Ryan worked from home and was wise enough not to be on calls, so when Haven came down to annoy him 8 million times, he was simply annoyed and not fired :)  In between annoying her father, she managed to whine and moan all night long which kept me up from about 3 am.  I really wish I could sleep like my husband, dead to the world, but I am a super light sleeper and hear everything.

Of course I finally dozed back off at 6:30 and work in a panic around 7:30.  Brittan has a program before school and was getting picked up at 7:50...eek!  Thankfully she is a trooper, ate breakfast while I packed her backpack and got herself dressed and ready to go super quick.  I then got Teagan, Grayson, Haven and myself ready, dropped Grayson at school since it was pouring and I don't like him to be alone at the bus stop and took Haven to the doctor.

Turns out the kid has an ear infection and strep, so she isn't feeling well which we knew and acknowledged, although I am still not sure she needed to keep me up two nights in a row!  After the doc, the rain had ended just enough that I decided to run to the grocery store which is next door.  I was craving eggplant and wanted to make some for lunch, so we ran in and grabbed a few quick items, then dropped of Haven's prescription and came home.

Thankfully today is our quiet day.  Held Teagan's morning nap off until after lunch and I am hoping she takes a good long sleep.  Haven is upstairs resting and I will run and grab her script when Ryan wakes at 4.  The other kids are at school, I made roasted eggplant with ricotta, basil, parm cheese and fresh sliced tomatoes for lunch which appeased my eggplant craving.  Dinner tonight is pretty simple, we are having angel hair with pesto and Caesar salad with bread.  Most of my work work is done, so now I am planning to relax before the evening rush and hope that Haven sleeps tonight.

All about my heart

It was a long and tiring day.  After no sleep last night, I headed out early to go see my cardiologist for my echocardiogram.  I had planned to have the hubby along since cardio visits stress me out, but with Haven home sick and no one sleeping the night before, I went alone after whining and crying like a baby about it.  I can do a lot, handle a lot, juggle a lot and deal with a lot, but there are a select few things that really throw me, and the cardiologist is one of them. 

Now I really *like* my current cardio, and that is saying a whole lot since I usually despise or barely tolerate them.  I got ths guy when pregnant with Teagan since my old cardio had a sh*t fit when he heard I was pregnant again, not the approach I like in a doctor.  I like the new cardio because he is very positive, he listens to me and he is the first cardiologist I have ever had who has looked at my situation and not my condition.  All the prior doctors pushed me to get surgery, a very invasive open heart surgery, even though there was no reason, I have no symptoms and my condition is causing no problems for me. 

Anywho, went for my echo and the tech let me know my gradient (which is how they measure the pressure in my heart) was lower than when pregnant with Teagan-which was good news.  We know the gradient goes really high when I am pregnant, and drops right back down after I deliver which shocked my doctor last time as it was 35 points lower just one week after delivering.  Today my gradient was about 11 points lower than when pregnant with Teagan, so we anticipate the next few weeks of pregnancy to progress smoothly and I don't need to worry about cardiac issues unless something changes drastically.

The cardio also had some really great news for me.  One of the things we watch, due to my condition, is for the heart to show signs of strain, usually evident by some enlargement of the heart due to it having to work harder.  At my age,  it is normal for any woman who has had multiple pregnancies to have some enlargement of the heart, nothing serious or significant, but as that muscle pumps all the extra blood we have when preggers, it works harder.  Surprisingly, my heart shows NO enlargement, even within what would be "normal" for a woman my age!  In addition, my heart function is absolutely perfect, no concerns at all!  For someone with a heart issue who has been waiting her whole life to find out when surgery would have to happen, when heart failure might start, when symptoms will show, this is such great news!  The doctor thinks there is no reason that I will not make it well into my forties or fifties before we even need to consider surgery, and being that we expected surgery to happen in my twenties, this is incredible.  He says he is impressed that my body simply compensated for the heart condition and has adapted and allowed me to maintain a healthy heart!  Such a sweet relief to hear today, to know that I can rest easy and that everything looks good.  Being that I live a stressful and busy life, and have many little people depending on me and my health, knowing that I am healthy and strong and able to care for them is so calming.

A short post

I am tired.  Tired of sick kids.  Tired of being uncomfortable.  And today, just TIRED since Haven has a cold and decided that keeping me up all night long, even though I don't feel well either, was a grand idea.  Add to that that I have a doctor's appointment this morning, followed by work, then I am alone with the kids tonight...yeah, outside the house from 9-5 on no sleep, feeling crappy, preggo and exhausted.  Did I mention that the hubby was supposed to come with me to the doctors but now can't because the sleep stealing child is being a pain. Yeah, I am freakin tired.

Shaking things up

We are in the midst of making some BIG decisions right now and I am not sure how they will all turn out.  We have decided (we think!) where we intend to move in the next few years and have laid out the tentative plan and timeline.  We know what type of home we want and size land, and have talked about the level of sustainability we are looking for, i.e. animals, solar power, etc.  I am in the process of looking at and soliciting some non-paying speaking gigs while I complete my dissertation so I can get picked up for some paying engagements in the next few years.  We are making decisions about schooling for one of our children. and we are considering what kind of schooling we will use with all the kids once the big move happens.

We are shaking things up, getting adventurous and making plans.  I am getting excited about all the changes the next two years will bring, and cannot wait to see how it all plays out.

Weekend Update

Whew, it was a busy few days!

Parents came in late Friday, then Saturday we went and had lunch at the park and the kids enjoyed the beautiful warm weather.  Came home to put the baby down for a nap and the three big kids went swimming at the hotel pool.  After a nice dinner, my parents went back to the hotel and the kids and I shuffled to bed.

Sunday we met my sister and her crew at a local pumpkin farm for their Fall Festival.  It was HOT!  Kids had fun on the big slide, zip line, hay swing, feeding farm animals, doing the corn maze and riding the hayride to get pumpkins.  It was a great afternoon, just too warm for "fall" and the poor mama and littlest baby were really wiped out.  My parents dropped us at the house so the kids could get some down time, and Ryan got up and ready so we could head to dinner.  Dinner turned out to be a nightmare, the food took forever to come out, the baby drank too fast and yakked down my back, the kids were too tired to eat when the food finally came, but they were so good even though they were restless, which was the best part of the evening :)

Came home and bathed and shower the troops, did some work and tried to sleep, but poor little Teagan was so overtired she was having a rough night.  Normally she is a champion sleeper, but if she is sick or overtired, she really struggles.  She was up from about midnight until after 2, and I spent most of that time rocking her in the chair in her room.  While I was tired and I wanted to crawl into my own bed, I relish those moments of quiet when she has her little arms wrapped tight around my neck, her face nuzzled into me while she breathes quietly in her sleep.  Babies grow so quickly, and while I still adore the hugs and snuggles from the big kids, those moments when they still fit into your arms so perfectly, they are fleeting, and disappear when we are not looking. So I sat and rocked and nuzzled and kissed that baby girl.

We were up and moving early, my parents came just before 9 am so we could head to an ultrasound.  While we were waiting, we were watching my belly jump and dance and I told Ryan that Finn was head down and stretching his legs but that the tech would confirm.  I was also pretty sure he was about 4 1/2 - 5 lbs (average at this gestation is 3.3 lbs) and the tech confirmed he is measuring about 5 lbs!  He is also measuring 2.5 weeks ahead on length, and is head down as we suspected.  All these things mean I need to be on high alert in the coming weeks since I have a tendency towards preterm labor and it seems like Finn is getting ready to go.  Hopefully he will hang in until at least 36 weeks, which is only 4 1/2 weeks away, but knowing my babies, we will evict him on his scheduled c-section date.

Cute kid pics and a really cool video of Finn to come....

P is for Pumpkins (and Papa & Nana)

My parents rolled into town last night and came bearing gifts from their recent trip.  They were in Denmark, Finland, Estonia, Russia and England and got the kids some awesome presents.  The girls got gorgeous stacking dolls and Grayson got some legos straight from the source :)  All the kids were given stuffed Beefeaters and my parents bought Ryan and two Christmas ornaments, one that is designed like a stacking doll but is a tree, Santa and snowman :)  I also got my chocolate covered biscuits from Harrods as request, nummy!

Today we will probably have a park day and the kids want to build the Halloween Haunted Gingerbread house.  Tomorrow we will meet up with my sister's crew at a local farm to pumpkin pick, see animals, do the corn maze and enjoy the festivities!  Now if only it wasn't in the 80's :(

The Little Miss

As I sit here, Teagan Jayne is happily running amok in the dining room pulling papers down, dumping out boxes of band aids and dragging toys about.  As the fourth child with older kids in the house, we confine her to a "safe" area during the times when I can not watch her like a hawk since the bigger kids often leave small items about that could hurt her.  During the day, I always free her from that area and let her have at it while I am watching her. She runs the loop from the dining room to the foyer to the kitchen and back.  She plays with the magnets on the fridge.  She pulls out everyone's shoes and tries them on.  It is a big adventure for her as she explores different parts of her world and it is so much fun watching her stop by the window to check out a squirrel or lay on the floor next to Rosie for a hug.

Things will be crazy soon as we will find a new routine that will work. It will be a new adventure for all of us, but for today I am enjoying watching my baby girl throw band aids and playdoh containers about.  The mess can always wait.

I am issuing a Public Service Announcement

I would like to provide the following important message to my loyal reader(s) who may be considering adding to their family. 

I DO NOT recommend that you get pregnant with your fifth child when your youngest current child is 8 months old, you are creeping up on/and have your 35th birthday, have two jobs, are writing your dissertation and your husband works a cracked out 12 hour schedule. 

Seriously.  Don't do it.  You will be tired and crabby and just want to curl in a ball and nap every afternoon from 1-4 and blow off work and cleaning and cooking. But you won't take that warm cozy nap because you need to work to earn a living to pay for all those kids who make the messes that need to be cleaned and who want to eat "good" dinners, and you love the little buggers so you keep truckin'. 

OK, fine, if you are creeping up on 35 or *gasp* ARE 35, and love your babies to the ends of the earth and back, and have pesky jobs and annoying schedules and decide (or have it decided for you-whoops!) that you will be blessed with a fifth little one...go for it with gusto and love and joy. But I warn you, you will be tired.... and it will be worth it.

I am an insurance company's nightmare

I am so tired of going to the doctor!  I have been at the OB for four weeks in a row, it should be every other week, but one week I needed to get bloodwork done and this week I need a shot in my ass (Rhogam) and of course these HAD to happen on the weeks I didn't have an appointment!  I was supposed to have another OB appointment next week but they gave me a reprieve, sort of, and instead scheduled me an ultrasound.  So next week I get to have two ultrasounds. One will check Finn's size, they suspect he is big, although I have no clue why that would concern them. He has always been big, all my kids are big and I am having a c-section so he could be 12 lbs at 38 weeks and it wouldn't matter (he won't be THAT big, I am guessing 8-9 lbs at 38 weeks).  Then I get to have an ultrasound of my heart, aka echocardiogram.  Just call me Sono-Woman...wonder what my superpowers might be?

Thankfully I get to see Finn on the ultrasound on Monday, and the double bonus is my parents will be here and can watch the other four kids so Ryan can come with me :)

This week I will be a single mom to many

We have had a busy few days, yesterday we cleaned the house and Ryan finished priming the playroom.  As we were planning to head out as a family to have dinner and get some new Halloween decorations, Brittan spiked a 102.5 fever. Since she had no symptoms except a little headache and being cold, we Motrined her and waited a half hour until she felt better, and away we went.

Got to the store and found candy corn that Haven can actually eat, so we loaded up on bags of candy corn and bunches of Halloween decorations that I will put up tomorrow.  Went to Chili's for dinner since we had 30 bucks in gift certificates and then home in the chilly rain to shuffle kids to bed.  Last night I worked upstairs with the window open and the rain trickling down-it was perfect while Ryan spent his evening painting the first coat in the playroom.  He stayed up really late, but got the while first coat done and it looks so, so good, I love the color we chose! 

Today we have Britty home and I was hoping the fever would break since she has a field trip tomorrow, but she is looking pretty harsh.  I managed to get to the grocery store and home by 9:15 this morning, we had a water/juice box emergency :)  Now I am snuggled in my comfy clothes, Britt is resting, Teagan is napping and Ryan is sleeping since he works tonight, albeit from home.  I will have to put on "real" clothes later since I have to go to class and give an exam :(

This week will be a crazy one.  Ryan works through Saturday night, that is six 12 hour shifts in a row!  I work tonight, then tomorrow shuffle kids to school and then have to run to the OB for a shot, then Wednesday I have a cardio appointment in the morning and need to pick up a fundraiser at the kid's school at 7 that night with all the kiddos in tow, Thursday I need to drop the girls off early then pick up Quail Cove then drop Gray off then farm then dance, and Friday kids have a half day and my parents come. Whew.

On an unrelated side note, I have seen a lot of visitors from a number of countries show up on my new ticker, so cool! I also think it is funny that people who want nothing to do with me and my family keep reading here, wonder what they are looking for....

Ah, my friend, you are here

Fall has arrived here in VA. Looks to be gorgeous this week, mostly highs in the 60's and low 70's with a few high 50's tossed in for fun.  I am excited to break out the striped and polka dotted tights for Teagan and the snuggly clothes for me, especially since I only have to teach one day this week at the PT gig :)

Hubby is off tonight which I am SO looking forward to!  I was down a kid last night since Haven was at a sleepover, so this morning the other three and I went and finally got the paint for the playroom, looked at and I think chose carpet for in there and then did a run to CVS.  I had a bunch of coupons that I wanted to use, including some BOGOF Glade Plug Ins and they had my favorite apple cinnamon scent!  Grabbed Haven from her friends house then came home, opened all the windows wide, plugged in the smellies, lit the candles and started dinner.  Tonight I am making a beef minestrone soup with loads of fresh veggies and thyme and some maple corn muffins on the side (made with VA Maple syrup!).  I am going to try to post the recipe on my other blog since I have gotten lazy about keeping it up, and because sometimes I will want to remake something and cannot remember what I did the first time.  I rarely use a recipe when cooking (baking I do!), I mean I read them all the time as inspiration, but them always go about it in my own way to match our tastes. 

Oh, and just to jump subjects, I have a HUGE list of Christmas cookies I want to make this year.  I am not sure how I will accomplish it since I will be having a baby just after Thanksgiving, but I am bound and determined.  I promised the kids that after Columbus Day Weekend, we would start baking at least one kind of cookie a weekend and then freezing them so we have them come December.  I always start with traditional chocolate chip, and will again this year, but hope to make the dozen or so kinds we are drooling over :)  I also plan to make four trays of cinnamon rolls that I will freeze before baking.  These are a favorite of the kids, and if I make them and freeze them, we just need to take them out and bake them off for an easy, hot breakfast when it is chilly outside.  I am really hoping to be prepped for Christmas and the early parts of Winter by mid November so we are all ready when little Finn makes his appearance!

If you give a pregnant lady a jalapeno popper

it will be all she thinks about all day long.  Seriously, I stopped at Sonic today to get a drink on my way to the farm and saw jalapeno poppers on the menu and thought I would give 'em a whirl at 10 am...they were so damn tasty and now I cannot have them again for a week since Sonic is so far away and so not something we would normally eat.

Today was our "busy" day, although I am beginning to believe that all days are busy in some way.  Teagie and I shuffled the olders to the bus stop just as Ryan pulled in the driveway which meant we could make an early escape since he would be home just in case something happened before the bus arrived.  Hightailed it out of the house and loaded Teagan and the crate of milk bottles into the car to begin our early morning adventures.  Of course, just as I arrived at the exit we needed to get off at, a horrific thought crossed my mind......my debit card is at home.  Ugh.  Called Ryan who confirmed that yes, the debit card was still at home.  Thankfully I have been this foolish before and keep a check stashed in my car just in case, whew.

First stop was to pick up the car seat I order a month ago. Kmart had an Evenflo car seat clearanced for like 20 bucks, seriously a car seat that usually costs almost 200 bucks was clearanced for 20 bucks and it was rated really well!  I of course ordered it since the only reason it was clearanced was because it was an "old" color and pattern which didn't matter worth a damn to me since it was neutral and fine for a spare seat for now and Finn's big seat for later.  Got to the store and customer service had no clue what I was talking about when I showed them the email that the car seat had arrived and even told me they don't do ship to store. They then sent me to the netherworld of the layaway department who REALLY had no clue.  Called a manager who said to come to customer service!?  Got there, they located the seat and when I got it, the box was banged up pretty badly.  Looked inside, seat was a-ok, but one of the cup holder thingies was missing.  Well, no skin off my teeth since we don't use them anyway in our car, we are too smooshed in as it is, so the last thing we need is something to make a car seat wider!  However the manager offered to refund me 5 bucks...on my 20 dollar purchase....of a 200 dollar car seat, well yes ma'am and thanks for the awesome deal, you just paid for my poppers :)

Finally got out of that store and finagled the seat into my car which was a comedy of errors, went to the bank and cashed my own check (sigh). Headed to the farm to pick up our 3 gallons of milk and quart of half and half that we use each week.  Soon we will need 3 1/2 gallons, and once Finn starts on milk, it will be at least 4 a week...the plan is to get a cow as soon as we can move!  Got the milk and some eggs, headed to Wegman's for the groceries and pondered the sheer cost of feeding my crew, and then rejoiced since the free stuff this week was all on my list.  Finally made it home, lugged all the food and overfull milk crate into the house, fed the baby who was frantically signing "eat" and got her down for a nap.  Then made eggplant and chicken parm to appease the family who have grown tired of my quick and easy meals of late.

Damn...every time I see that title I want a popper~

Sleep Deprivation

I am not sleeping.  I am REALLY not sleeping.  Many nights I can't fall asleep until after midnight, and I keep waking around 3 am and then I can't go back to sleep, well I probably could sometime around 7 am when it is time to get the kids ready for school and when Teagan wakes up.  Last night I slept from 11:30-2:45 am...yep, that was it and given I was really tired from getting up at 3 am the morning before, it is amazing that I STILL had the weirdo insomnia.

It is really common for women to have insomnia or frequent waking at the end of their pregnancies, folks even say that it helps "prepare" the mom for the night waking needed to feed a newborn.  I, however, get more sleep after having a baby then I do the last two to three months of my pregnancy due to my crazy sleep issues.  I remember coming home with Teagan and getting up with her every three hours and being excited that I went back to sleep each time!  Being that my kids still wake me at night  a few times, the big kids that is, I have no need to be "prepared" yet here I am, waking at 3 am and feeling like I will die somewhere around noon.  Then the sun sets, the kids go to sleep and I lay there trying so hard to find dreamland, it is terrible.

Thankfully there are a few special nights that visit where I pass the heck out at like 8 pm and sleep until 7 am and I believe I am creeping up on one of these since I am so danged tired and this has been going on over a week.  I really hope I get the big sleep tonight because I have a bunch of errands to run tomorrow, and we need to deep clean the house this weekend and work on painting, so sleep is a big need right now.

Since I have no work to do, well not work work anyway, I am going to snuggle with Teagan on the couch, listen to the rain falling and hope that when she naps today I doze off too :)

Survival of the fittest

We made it to the end of Ryan's 5 12-hour days.  We never really saw him, except in passing, and it made for some long days and nights especially with kids feeling under the weather, no one sleeping well and general the general busy schedule.  Today he will sleep until about 4, get up and I will leave for class and hopefully be home by 10:30 where I will fall into bed until 7 am tomorrow.  Tomorrow is the only other day he is off this week, so in the morning I will take Teagan with me to the OB and the farm so he can work on the playroom a bit, then I am vying for a nap in the afternoon and the whole crew is going out to dinner.

Then come Wednesday, we are back in the thick of it, he sleeps, I work, then he works through Friday night, off Saturday and Sunday then works Monday through Saturday. Now THAT will be pure hell for all of us, but we will make it and it will be worth it in the end.  Needless to say, I am looking forward to maternity leave in December and January and Ryan has already committed to taking two weeks off, although we may push that to three after these OT days!