I am in this for the small moments, the glimpses, the mere seconds sometimes where you are able to step outside yourself and the craziness of motherhood and see those precious babies growing into people, good people. No one slept well here last night, most of us were still up at 3 am and while we hung in bed until 8 I was still dreading today since we had outing we had to do. I couldn't have been more wrong, my big kids totally rose to the occasion and when I talked to them about what needed to be done and how they set the tone for the day with their behavior, they totally got it. They were helpful, with Britt and Gray working together to drag a box of toys were were donating to the car. The girls helped get the babies in and out of the car multiple times. They were helpful at Home Depot while I purchased a new grill, listening, asking well thought out questions and generally being good and kind to one another. After Home Depot I took them to a little pizza buffet place for lunch since Britt had a coupon for a free meal from a school award. They were awesome! Britt helped Teagan with her food, Haven helped Gray, they walked and didn't run, no shouting just good kids sitting and eating their meal....it was awesome!
I decided to push my luck and run to the grocery store since we were out and again they were awesome. It was so easy, we were in and out, Haven helped me pack the groceries while Grayson sat quietly, and if you know him that alone is amazing, and Britt stood with Teagan and the cart with Finn. Came home and put babies down for naps and the kids cleaned up the playroom begrudingly, but it was done and we had an easy evening.
I live for these days, when I see they big kids acting, well, big! When I see all the years of hard work teaching them, talking to them, encouraging them to make good choices actually paying off. I know they are growing up, I see their faces changing and they like music and video games now, not trucks and baby dolls. I still have two babies here that have all those years ahead, but seeing my big kids pull it together today was so incredible, I can only hope the two little ones follow their example.